Thursday, November 22, 2007

Graditude- Happy Thanksgiving

On this beautiful Thanksgiving Day morning I want to reflect on all that I have to be grateful for. It has been a very difficult year for me but I have so much to be thankful for.

I am thankful for.....

Jesus... who even on my worst days, loves me, over looks my many faults and forgives me.
Who died a burtial death on an old rugged cross so that I might be forgiven for my sins and live forever with Him in Heaven.

Salvation... the peace of knowing God awaits me on the other side, He has prepared a place for me to spend eternity with Him and all that have gone before me. There will be no more sorrow, tears or pain.

Grace... I am very thankful for Grace...!

United States of America..... who even on its worst days, its better than living anywhere else in the world.

American Soldiers..... who fight for the freedom to write what I feel right now, sacrifice time away from family this holiday season, and who put their life on the line for mine. I am thankful for those that return home safely and respect those who died for the cause.

Freedom... to pray and worship and read my Bible with out the threat of prison or death.

Democracy.... the right to vote and be counted.
My health.... even with all the complications I have had this year, I'm not dead.


My husband.... who even on my worst days, loves me, over looks my faults and forgives me...
who has a heart for worship, and who is a man of integrity. I can't imagine life without him.

My daughter... Kayla, though I didn't give birth to her, she is the light of my life.

My church family.... a group of people I have come to respect, love and enjoy serving with. Godly people who love and serve God with zeal, and excitement.

My sisters.... 3 women that I admire, respect and love.

My family... a group of people that I couldn't have gotten through life without.

My friends... very special people that has blessed my life in ways I couldn't imagine.
Thank you for always standing beside me, even when it wasn't the easiest place to be...
when silence was golden, because words were unnecessary, when it could have been easier to stay away but instead you never left me alone. Thank you for sharing life with me and giving me another reason to look forward to another day.

My Children.... although they are no longer with me physically, I am grateful for their time on earth. Both of their lives had meaning, purpose, and a sense of accomplishment. They make me very proud to be called mother.

In Memory Chad Michael Dawson November 22, 1982-June9,1988
William Bradly Dawson October 22, 1985 - November 14, 2004

My Mother..... I am grateful for a mother who was a mentor to many, a friend to all, who's example of hard work, and love of life still lives on through her daughters. She was a wonderful example of endurance, laughter, love and descentency. She taught us to pray, work hard and love others more than we love ourself.

In Memory of Mary Ida Meyer March 30, 1935 - November 22, 1978.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Remebering God's Blessings


Silent Tears
They were silent tears that fell that day
They fell for my son who passed away
Through gritted teeth that had to say
I’ve lost my child, for him I prayed.
These silent tears that fall like rain
From reddened eyes my cheeks they stain
They signify my constant pain
And yet I wonder if I will arise again.
Though countless tears I have cried
Are always wet and never dried
The innocent are on God’s side
We are resolved in a mother’s pride.
Well it has started out to be a good day in spite of the depression I am feeling... something I have been fighting for the past two weeks. November 14, just another hump day to most people, just another middle of the week, just another rainy day to some... to me it is just another year gone by without my precious Brad. As hard as I try to make this just another day like any other. it just doesn't happen because any other is just like to day....and probably will be for a while.
Not just something you get over... ever.

God has been at work in my life for the past few weeks cleaning up the mess we have made.

Update:

Gary fixed the brake lights on the van and the heater is working on the other van now,Yeah Gary!

Chris will be watching Kim now 3 days a week, Kim's worker that mistreats her is gone, and it will help Christie's finances because she will be getting paid to do it!!! Win, Win for everyone!!

Audit is still on going but I am saved from paying over $15,000 dollars on 2 contracts because if I don't charge sales tax on my invoices the hospital and ASU pay them for me!!!!! Praising the Lord!!!!

Went to my appointment in Jonesboro Friday Dr. Scroggins, the oncologist, assured me he does not think that I have cancer or Leukemia!!!! He took a gallon of blood and is sending it to St. Louis, Houston, and his lab and testing it. and I went yesterday to have a CT on my head and upper body. Find out Friday, what they find. fingers crossed and prayers going up.

Bought all the lumber, windows and stuff for the enclosing of the garage!! won't be long now!

Started my birthday shopping Monday, Kayla, Gary and Christy... pretty easy...money, money, money!!