I have really gotten lazy about writing on this blog. At first I was excited because it was something new and different. I started telling my life story to get naked on the web about who I am but that became to painful. I have to take a breath from that for just a little while anyway, this time of year is pretty raw and full of emotion. Now I just don't know what to talk about.

I guess I can fill you in on what has been going on in my life now. Gary and I finished the building out back. My new office/ work area. It's a 20 x 24 metal building. I have it fixed up pretty nice. And last week an old friend of mine had gotten word that I needed heat in the building. He called out of the clear blue one day last week, he had a commercial unit he had taken out of a school. He came looked at the shop and said it would work if I wanted it. I now have heat!! Now for those of you that are thinking "wow, that was luck" I say to you, "no, that is God".

I told you both my company vans had gone down at the same time, well my husband, not the mechanic, decided he could fix it! Word to the wives, if your husband offers say yes, but have a back=up plan just in case it doesn't turn out like he hoped..... The heat wasn't working on either van, I called the professionals to find out what it would cost to have it fixed ..cost $200.00 for both vans.. Gary insisted he could fix it. Ten days later, I have two new heater coals.. cost 150.00, a new alternator.. cost $ 68.00, two new heater control valve.. cost $15.00 each, and no blinkers or brake lights!!! Go figure that one out. The fact that he tried.....Priceless.

My audit was Wednesday, young man from Jonesboro came and spent the entire day with me looking over my books. I will admit, I am no bookkeeper. But after this, I will take a refresher course in Accounting 101. It was horrible. We only got through 2004 and 2005 when we quit and so far I am owing the IRS $2000.00. Lesson 1. Never trust a contractor. Lesson 2. Keep all receipts. Lesson 3. Write everything down. Lesson 4. Hire someone who is a good book keeper. Part 2 is coming up this Thursday years 2006 and 2007. I can't wait. We both left the office with headaches. Note: God has already provided the money to pay the IRS as long as I don't exceed 5000.00. He is so faithful

My surgery was Thursday on my head. They put me to sleep and removed 28 lesions from my head. It's called Seborrhea Kerotosis. He removed 33 from my right side, chest area and back. They are like moles that get large and crusty. Gross huh. sorry, to much information. I have been pretty sore the last few days. This too shall soon pass.

I slept all day. I needed to. Something I very rarely get any more is a good nights rest. I am going this Friday to have a sleep study done to see why. Doc seems to think I have sleep apnea with insomnia. Long story.

I go to an Oncologist Friday too. That's scary. I'm not really scared, a little concerned maybe.
My philosophy is this.... I have faced allot of bad news in my life... if I can bury my mother,father and two children and survive that...there is absolutely nothing I can't get through because I thought that would kill me. Whatever turns up I know God will see me through it, He always has.

I have had my son Brad on my mind allot lately. Been going through a very emotional time. November 14 it will be 3 years since his death. November 22 it will be 30 years since my mother's death, November 22 is my son's Chad's birthday he would be 25 years old, it's been 19 years since his death. Kayla's birthday is the 20Th of November, she will be 19 and Gary's birthday is November 21, he's 54, and my sister's birthday is the 23rd November. And then there's Christmas.

I hope you are not reading this and rolling your eyes saying to yourself "what a whiner!" I am not whining about this season of my life. That is what this is.... a season. I know this is not going to be forever. Just something God is showing me, teaching, and leading me through right now.
In the book of Ecclesiastic it says "There is a time and a season for everything..." I just came through a season of prosperity, a season of health issues and a season of renewing. And though it was difficult in places, it was worth it. It was a time of intimacy, refreshment, and renewing with my relationship with my Abba Father. He taught me to "be still" and "wait", He taught me limits, and He taught me different ways that God shows His love to me through blessings of friends and encouragement.

No one likes to go through rough times, we would all like to live in Eden, but the truth of the matter is I am a better person on the other side of whatever trial I am going through. If I just let go and let God show me what He wants me to learn. I believe we go through these seasons because God is trying to show us something, to build our character and to make us more like Him. I also believe that it is in the trials that we find out what we are made of. I should be 10 feet tall and bullet proof but for whatever reason I still have a lot more growing to do.

Moral of this Blog: If you are going through a difficult season just remember it won't last forever and there are things to be learned. Allow God to build your character.