Remebering God's Blessings

Silent Tears

They were silent tears that fell that day

They fell for my son who passed away

Through gritted teeth that had to say

I’ve lost my child, for him I prayed.
These silent tears that fall like rain

From reddened eyes my cheeks they stain

They signify my constant pain

And yet I wonder if I will arise again.
Though countless tears I have cried

Are always wet and never dried

The innocent are on God’s side

We are resolved in a mother’s pride.

Well it has started out to be a good day in spite of the depression I am feeling... something I have been fighting for the past two weeks. November 14, just another hump day to most people, just another middle of the week, just another rainy day to some... to me it is just another year gone by without my precious Brad. As hard as I try to make this just another day like any other. it just doesn't happen because any other is just like to day....and probably will be for a while.
Not just something you get over... ever.

God has been at work in my life for the past few weeks cleaning up the mess we have made.

Update:

Gary fixed the brake lights on the van and the heater is working on the other van now,Yeah Gary!

Chris will be watching Kim now 3 days a week, Kim's worker that mistreats her is gone, and it will help Christie's finances because she will be getting paid to do it!!! Win, Win for everyone!!

Audit is still on going but I am saved from paying over $15,000 dollars on 2 contracts because if I don't charge sales tax on my invoices the hospital and ASU pay them for me!!!!! Praising the Lord!!!!

Went to my appointment in Jonesboro Friday Dr. Scroggins, the oncologist, assured me he does not think that I have cancer or Leukemia!!!! He took a gallon of blood and is sending it to St. Louis, Houston, and his lab and testing it. and I went yesterday to have a CT on my head and upper body. Find out Friday, what they find. fingers crossed and prayers going up.

Bought all the lumber, windows and stuff for the enclosing of the garage!! won't be long now!

Started my birthday shopping Monday, Kayla, Gary and Christy... pretty easy...money, money, money!!