I’m Not Alone

You Are Not Alone

When people let me down, my smiles are replaced with frowns

I think it is my own fault, and fill my wounds with my own salt

My self-esteem falls through the floor, it hurts me through to my core.

And then I pull down deep inside, and from the world I try to hide.

I can not see the good I've done, nor can I see the morning sun

I shun the ones who say they love, and begin to doubt the Lord above

This dreary sadness fills my soul, my heart fills like an empty bowl

If death would come i would not care, for I have nothing left to give or share

While I sit in my room, dwelling in my selfish gloom

I read a passage in my book that to my very bones I shook

I've read this passage many times, but never did I pay any mind.

I kept this message pushed aside, so I could stay within and hide.

But this time when I read my book, my eyes where opened, I took a look

"I am with you, you are not alone" He said in a soft tone.

A peace came over me as I cried, I no longer wanted to die.

Those words rang out in truth and light, magnified my inner sight

As I looked deep inside of me, I saw the person God saw in me

The word of God was clear that day, I bowed my head and began to pray

In His image I was made, knowing this I'm not afraid

Knowing that I'm not alone cause God is my "cornerstone"

I'm armed against depressions trials, I now live with my Saviors smile.

Does any one else ever feel like this? Empty, sad, lonely, depressed.
I have gotten up some days feeling like this. Darkness, like a cloud over my head,
in my soul, and over shadowing the bright morning sun. No interest in the day,
no excitement, or joy. Feeling useless to myself and everyone around me.
Thoughts of all those loved ones who have left me behind, and have gone on to
Glory land.... What a total waste of precious time, gifts, energy, and ministry.
God said in His word, " There is a time for everything and a season for every
activity under the sun..." Ecc. 3:1.
to paraphrase it says a time to be born and die... tear down and rebuild...
weep and laugh...mourn and dance...keep and throw away.... so knowing this,
I share with you, that whatever trial, burden, suffering or trouble you are going through,
This is just a season. When I am in my suffering, depression, etc.. I call that season
Old man Winter, because it is so cold and lonely. When I am rebuilding, throwing away,
etc. I call this Spring because it reminds me of cleaning. When I am dancing, singing,
laughing, this is summer because I am having fun. What ever you are going through
right now just remember this too shall pass for it is a season that God has allowed to
help you grow and learn who He is. It took me a long time to learn this lesson, I
wondered 40 years in the desert on this one Ha! But I didn't go it alone. God sent His
only begotten Son Jesus to walk with on this journey. We matter to God.
"Come to me, all who are weary and I will give you rest." Matt.11:28,
"My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness". 2 Cor. 12:9,
"In this world you will have trouble, but take heart! I have overcome the world".
I could go on and on of His great love for us. "Let us approach the throne of grace
with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us
in our time of need." Hebrews 4:16 I matter to God and you matter to God.
God knows when you are going to have days like this. He also uses people to show
how much He loves you. Ever had a bad day and get a card, or a phone call from
someone you care about and they "just had you on their heart"? Or you have someone
on your heart so strong that you had to send a card or call them? That my friend is God.
And I am not alone because God sent my friend Jesus to be with me always, to the end
of my days. I still have my days, when I do I call on Him and He is near.

Moral of this Blog: " Why are you so downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?

Put your hope in God for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."Psalms42:5,6

I recieved an email this morning and at the end of the message it read
LIFE IS NOT MEASURED BY THE BREATHS WE TAKE; BUT BY THE MOMENTS THAT TAKE OUR BREATH AWAY!
I have pondered this thought all day. What has taken my breath away? And my first thought is anytime you hear bad news, a death, a loss of job. Tragady always takes your breath away. I don't want to spend a lot of time on things like that today. I want to think about other times my breath has been taken away.
These are a few of those times for me.......................................................................................................
when I got my first puppy as a child, remember? Eyes light up, month flies open, breath gone. The first time I rode my bike with no training wheels....the moment my dad let go of the seat and I was peddling and balanced....the first time I heard my 4th grade teacher Mrs. Brummett say to me, "Vicki you have won our class writting contest"....the day I didn't hear my named called to sit first chair in 7th grade band because I got beat out by a stupid boy.... the first time I heard John Denver sing... November 22, 1979... my wedding night:)....November 22, 1982 the day my first son was born Chad Micheal Dawson....the day I recieved a call from the appartment managers office and was told it was going to cost me $1500.00 to replace the landscape flowers that my son and his friends picked for Mothers Day bouquet.... June 6th, 1988.....November 22, 1985 the day my son William Bradly was born... the day I was going to Rogers to visit him Mothers Day weekend and heard him on the radio telling a made up story of my most embarrsing momment to win a Mothers Day contest the station was doing and he won the "Throw Your Mama Under The Bus" radio contest... November 14, 2004... that magic moment when I fell in love with my husband and he sill takes my breath away....
What takes your breath away? Ever thought about it?
But one thing I have found that takes my breath away more than anything or anyone is God.
His majesty, His glory, His love and His beauty. We have all seen His beauty...rainbows, roses, butterflies, Spring flowers, Fall leaves, snow and the miracle of birth...to mentiion a few.
Life is full of breath taking moments, we just sometimes forget to appreciate them. I hope you take a moment today to reflect your aha moments, consentrate on the good ones , and remember those that weren't.

Moral of this Blog: "Praise The Lord! I will extol the Lord with all my heart... Great are the works of the Lord; they are pondered by all who delight in them.Glorious and majestic are his deeds, and his righteousness endures forever. He has caused his wonders to be remembered..." Psalms 111:1a,2-4a