Why?

Why do we hurt?

What is with pain?

Why do we do it?

What do we gain?

Do we gain strength?

Does it bring God near?

Does it help us understand?

Does it help us to see?

What is love?

Why do we feel it?

Is it important?

Are we forced to deal with it?

What if I stopped loving?

Would I feel pain?

But then, once again,

What would I gain?

Love is to be cherished.

Love can make you whole.

Love is what keeps us alive.

Love is the language of the soul.

Why do I hurt? (BRTN3325)

My heart has been so heavy, as if I had a large weight is sitting on top of my chest. Burdened, sore, aching, like it is crying out for something to stop the pain. Thoughts run through my mind of different ways to stop the insanity....sleepless nights, mind screaming to the top of its thoughts, crazy sounds... like some one wanting out.

Someone left me a comment saying "what an amazing strong human being I am" they don't know me... anyone wants to know me... really knows me. A world full of people and no one knows me.

Sunday morning.... Maria still in bed...Gary playing at Reynolds... Here I sit.... Been up since 4:30 am waken to a phone call from Arkansas Methodist Hospital Trauma Room. Didn't get to the call in time... hospital won't give me any information....waiting for the bad news... have called a waken every body I know.. Kayla home in bed..Landon and Lindsey home in bed... family out of town safe.... Christie and Kim sound to sleep...fine.. so who? praying to God everyone is safe.....waiting for bad news.

I can't handle any more bad news!... I have had my life share of it.